I have always had a strong link with Egypt. When I was small I was already fascinated by the culture. My first presentation in school was about Egypt and one of my first and most memorable holidays was to Egypt. I felt such a connection and the energy and memories of the land has never left me.

Magdalene

Earlier this year I attended a Mary Magdalene workshop with Judith Moore. If you read this blog, you know that Mary Magdalene is very present in my life at this time. The energy of Isis has been present for much longer. To me they feel very much like the same energy. These goddesses are mother of my soul, a power of love that helps me connect to my true self and guide me to overcome the fear of stepping into my greatness.

Thoth

During this workshop with Judith, Thoth made his presence known several times and we (those of us that felt called) were guided to travel to Egypt to do Light Work there. Thoth was our guide on this journey. He teaches us to balance the duality in ourselves and show us that with the energy of the Gods we can grow our own selves.

Insights

At this moment we are guided not to share our shared experiences, work and insights as this will diminish the power of the energy and also to protect privacy. I am sure Judith will share her insights when the time is right and in her way. So here I am just sharing my insights and experiences. But also not all, just my personal thoughts and feelings. I want to write them down to make a bit more sense of them and for me to keep the record. Now it is still fresh in my memory.

Roots

I felt called to come to my roots, to the homeland. To receive new and pure energy, to heal my soul and body. To go back to the past to see the solution clearly and find what I have missed for a long time. To open the gates of my heart and feel the deep roots from the past. I didn’t know what to expect, I just heard the call and replied.

Perfect as is

Arriving in Cairo, my ego was a bit overwhelmed by fatique and feelings of not being worthy. I felt small compared to the other beautiful beings in the group. Everyone felt so pure, light, loving and tuned in. I felt a bit like an ugly dumb duckling, out of place, but I quickly recognized this old pattern of self doubt and comparing and I swiftly corrected myself and made myself feel right at home without changing who I am. During the journey I never pretended and stayed very real and vulnerable. We all play our part and we all have our way and it is perfect as is.

Contribution

Throughout the journey I asked myself what my contribution was being there, being part of this group. People were having great experiences and insights. I just kept hearing the repeating message to “re-member”, bring all parts back together. “When you are whole, you remember your divine origin and you will be reunited with Source. By becoming whole you feel connected to All that is and you experience the divine within yourself. Becoming one with all the souls qualities and godliness”. I must admit that my ego was protesting a bit. I wanted a big experience, I wanted to contribute to the group by having clear and brilliant insights to help our journey, but all the journey my mind just went blank and I could just be, no more no less. I had all sorts of deep experiences and deja-vu’s, but none of which I could really put into words. All I kept hearing was to re-member. I kept seeing Isis searching for the 14 parts of Osiris to make him whole again. Isis (the soul) brought back the parts of Osiris (the true self) in order to become whole. “Remember unity and the joy of co-creation. Let go of ego and needing to understand and put into words. Be a silent witness, re-align, become full and let go. Remember who you truly are. Your number is being called and you are asked to respond, take a leap of faith”.

Heavy Light Work

The journey for me was all about remembering, reconnecting, letting go and being. Not doing or thinking. Just being and letting be. Observe, feel and anchor. I had some amazing experiences. My mind doesn’t always understand, but my soul knows. My mind didn’t want to put it into words or didn’t feel the need to ‘understand’. I let go of all “stories”. We processed a lot of energy and I feel we did great Light Work. Most of the time I was buzzing, burping, feeling electricity in my legs and hands and having vivid deja vu experiences. At one temple I felt great stabbing pains and started sobbing. It came totally out of the blue. I felt so much pain and grief and also it felt like coming home. I recognized this place so well. A little later in the tomb I felt profound healing, I felt I let go and pulled back a piece of myself…and from that moment I started to have diarrhea. Now for me that is very unusual. I never get the runs when I travel, but quite the opposite. I usually get constipated the whole trip and up to this day in the tomb I hadn’t pooped so to speak and now well the flood gates were open. Time to release and well still am. If it is not normal by Monday, I will see a doctor as I am starting to dehydrate (feeling faint and cramps in my legs). But to me this stool feels energetic, not illness. I feel like I am releasing, clearing and letting go. That is also why I haven’t tried to stop it the diarrhea with drugs.

Alchemy

When my ego reared it’s head I realized that the group was alchemically put together and I am just as ‘important’ as any other. My ego didn’t feel it that way, but my soul did. I know this to be true. By self investigation, consciousness and development we can conquer the opposites and find unity once again. Just like the seven metals in alchemy, humankind walks the path of base metal (lead, Earthbound) to precious/noble metal (gold, Divine). The alchemic ideal unites opposites and transmutes this to something of a higher plane. It aimed to purify, mature, and perfect. Horus was born from Isis and Osiris and symbolizes the unity of male and feminine energy within us, where unity within ourselves is created. Horus is unity consciousness. Becoming whole is important as it lifts you above the world of duality and materialism. By this process you no longer feel chained, dependent, separated or limited. Let yourself be led by your soul and feel that the immortal you is all. This knowing liberates and provides the possibility of living your true potential.

Intergrate

Coming home from Egypt I went straight back to work, which was a bit of a challenge as I am having a hard time to use my right brain. Also I have felt a bit weird and floaty, not to mention the diarrhea. So a challenge, but I did well. I got so much more done than expected, but today I decided it was time for a day of to integrate and rest and write this post to record my insights at this time.

Sarcophagus

I pulled an Oracle card to represent the reason for me being on this trip, the answer:

An instrument for ordeal and initiation. Be prepared to enter into a higher state of consciousness. You will be tested to show if you’ve grown in consciousness. Oversee your existence and connect to the highest level of consciousness. I feel the most important message of this card is letting go. Release. The release of problems, pain and ballast from the past. I feel this card asks me to let go of all the hinder and blockages from the past. These blockages and old pain take so much energy and I am so tired. I now feel life loves me and the Universe takes such good care. There is no use in resisting what is. I am asked to be, just be.

Healing

It was very healing for me to visit the magical places of power and to work with this special group. I feel so grateful and blessed. I am also grateful to myself for making time and space out of love for myself. To take a step back from daily life and have a leap of faith. To have an adventure and to be here now. To enJOY. I deserve this. I experienced timelessness and endlessness. I re-membered and collected my specific qualities. All will unfold and deepen via the many mirrors in light and the shadows. I feel safe to rekindle connections in relation to the bigger whole and to receive Love in all of it’s facets. I can be me, totally, fully, wholly. I feel seen and carried.

Changing

Most of the time throughout the trip and well still seemed dream-like and without the restriction of time and space. I now feel detached. My day-to-day life is like a dance in which I have no interest. I understand that this time is only a springboard into deeper insight and creativity. I feel my personal identity changing, I cannot seem to identify with my earthly existence in ways I was used to. I feel expanded. My personal conviction is that the numinous realms of being open to us a fascinatingly rich area of human potential. By connecting to light and life, the immortal, instead of darkness and death, or mortal matter, we become more conscious, light and etheric, subtle. We will then see beyond the veil of Isis. I feel called to share to remind us to regularly aks ourselves with what or who we connect ourselves, share our time and which part of ourself is fed by this. Enlightenment means that we live in the light (conscious) instead of in the dark (unconscious). By feeding our soul, memories will flow back to us and our consciousness will expand and we will come closer to ourselves. This takes time, dedication, training, but all that we need is within ourselves.

I bow to you, the co-creators of our destiny. May the light of our own higher realizations illuminate our way.

Much love,

Charissa

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