Yesterday evening I visited the Temple of the Goddess in Amsterdam. Friday, an evening to gather with Freya.
I will not write much about the ceremony, because this is not for me to share, it is public if you want to visit sometime (see the website for more information). I learned about new insights about Freya which the Priestess of the Temple received over the years working with her, such as how long back she may have been worshipped, where and how important this Goddess really was and is.
I felt her presence clearly. We sang to Her, offered to Her, traveled with Her, with the Great Goddess of the Land.
She is
Why did I choose to visit this ceremony, what is my intend in working with Freya? Freya to me represents a fierce woman, who isn’t scared of her beauty and her sexuality. She is also the Goddess of Wrath as she does not take kindly to her love being abused. She who isn’t afraid of life. She is life. She is love. And I am seeking that fire deep within me. The roaring fire I have been throwing buckets off water over, again and again. Emotions extinguishing all passion.
Instead of surviving, I want to live more fully, it is time to take my foot from the brake, I am not getting any younger and sure not any happier. The past years slowly, but surely I have been coming more into my power, my strength, and have been rekindling my passion. Also I have stepped up my magickal practice and this is helping me tremendously in focus and dedication. But lately I have been feeling quite depleted and sad, a deep mourning has come over me and sometimes I lose my drive and creativity. It just isn’t flowing at the moment, I feel a bit like a stagnant pool of water…slowly decaying and gathering muck. I am aware of this and very much working on it and I know that things will move again. I trust the cycles of life, but also know that I have to do the work and help the process along. I am not a victim of life. I am a creator.
Goddess of divination and magic
Freya is also the Goddess of divination and magic, and as a witch, tarot practitioner and deck creator this makes me feel connected to her even more. She taught Odin Seidr in return for knowledge of the Runes. She had the ability to shape-shift (with her falcon feather cloak) and to perform spells.
Fertitlity, love, sexuality, are all themes in my life right now. But Freya also has a keen gift for discernment, seeing truth and not compromising on these factors. Something we can all aspire to in this day and age, where lies are triumphant and illusion is all around. So Freya calls to me right now and feel very drawn to her energy. I hope I may serve her well.
I pulled this card at the end of the ceremony and I laughed as it is card 44 and I just turned 44. It shows The Faery of the Green World and her message is “nature needs you”. And I smiled again as I immediately see the face of creepy Greta grimacing at me. And no the message I now receive is not about carbon. It goes deeper than that. Mother Nature wants us to love her, not fight because of her. But truly connect to her. Not fight because of your future (because this is all I read “I don’t have a future”…blah blah) but because of her future and your true love for nature. When you truly connect to her, you will feel the truth and find the answers (which isn’t skipping school and protesting believe you me).
So thank you Mama Nature, you do need us, Freya needs us, Goddess of the Land and we all so need you in return, more than we realize. Nature for me is like a mother, the Mother. Mother keeps me alive and sane, I can breathe in nature, feel alive in nature, connect to the elements, hear her whispers of wisdom, receive my own insights and feel totally loved and accepted. Without nature we would be dead, we would be robots, no soul, no life. Beware. This is her warning and plea. Connect to nature, love her and hear her, truly hear her (not the news and your peers).
In closing we shared a horn of juice (and Mede for The Lady, for Freya) and shared our wishes and gratitude.
At the end, upon leaving, I forgot to take one of the blessed apples home with me. Another reminder for me to not only service and give, but to allow to receive as well.
Thank you Zia for walking your path and your hospitality. Thank you for guiding us this evening. I immensely enjoy your voice and the trance journey was so powerful, the hair on my body stood up like plugged into a power socket and I saw so many images, this continued right into dreamtime last night. I took last night to process and write this blog entry this morning. Thank you!
