The Story of my Why

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What I’m MOST passionate about is helping you fall in love with yourself and your life.

I want to help you feel how beautiful you truely are and help you  create a life of joy and ease.

Change Yourself, Change the World – With the butterfly effect, one smile from you can change thousands of lives. So I am here to walk my talk and shine my life and hope to ignite someone else’s. Let’s open our hearts and co-create something beautiful!

I am feeling called to share a “short” version of “my story” here:

Turn back the clock a couple of years. Here I was on a beautiful beach in Indonesia and I felt nothing…just numb and ready to give up.

This was my final push towards my lifepath. I had drifted far from myself and was totally out of touch with my inner guidance. Well I wasn’t really out of touch, I heard it loud and clear, but was too stubborn to listen. 

Phew writing an “About Me”-page is hard. What do I share here? Am I oversharing, how vulnerable do I allow myself to be, how to protect other people in my life because they are part of my story? Everybody has and has had it hard at times, we are here to experience all sorts of emotions and it really is only “ my story”. But I do feel guided to share how I arrived here, becoming a coach, reader and healer and feeling called to shine my light and help you shine yours!  I do believe my story can help other people feel where I am coming from and how I can help you. It helps us connect and I like to show you that you can change your life as well.  I want to be open and “real”. I am done playing small and hiding. So me helping you also helps me heal. I have skipped over some horrible parts, because they are very private and are not needed to share at this moment, also to protect other people involved, but perhaps I will touch on that in a blog sometimes. I don’t know yet… I will just follow my guidance.

So here goes.

As I am writing this down, most of it just feels like they are stories now, stories that I have let go of, sort of like a movie a have seen a long time ago and that is such a positive thing! Yay!!

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I was born with pointy ears, I always believed that I was a little fairy, or related to Spock, because I also felt that I didn’t belong here and my home was somewhere up there in the stars ;-). I now know that I am from the Mystic Angel Star People Realm (I do Realm readings in case you want to know your realm) and that helps so much. I understand myself so much better. I have now reconnected to my Star Brothers and Sisters and they help met with my Mystic Angel Star Healing.  And more information about the Mystic Angel Star Realm can be read here: http://www.joyincreation.com/mystic-angel-star/

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Bullies and eating disorders

I talked to Angels, starbeings and fairies and was very sensitive like I believe all children are, they are still so vulnerable, and so open and in touch with who they really are. Pure, with so much magic, possibilities, abilities and talent. But people didn’t approve and I see now that they couldn’t be aware of me. The more I showed myself the more I was shunned.  I was always bringing home strays and bullied children. With the consequence that I was severely bullied myself from preschool into High School and lots of other shitty stuff happened (neglect, abuse, just too much to go into now and it really is not important anymore, all is forgiven). I felt alone, weird, lost and unloveable. I didn’t want to be on this planet anymore, it felt so dense, I felt very disenchanted and I just tried to shut off all feelings and just focus on my brain, study and lots of doing and distracting, all focus on grades and control. I lost total connection to my body, I was like a walking brain. To shut down my footprint and feelings even more,  I developed an eating disorder, anorexia, I literally did not want to be on this Earth anymore and did not want be seen, I didn’t want to feel. Somehow for years (about 20 years) I did ” alright”  – on the outside –  I graduated with straight A’s and rolled into a dream job straight out of college. I worked my butt off and then after years and years of not really living, but surviving, things began to fall apart. I burned out three times and then I just didn’t recover, I was always tired and couldn’t find my spark anymore. Life just seemed long and empty.

Off track and lost

For a long time I felt that I was so off track with my life. I was ignoring my calling (and it was shouting loud by this time and I was still ignoring the call) and it was like pushing a ball under water. I felt completely overwhelmed and extremely tired and emotional. I just lost all joy for life and couldn’t see where to start to pick up the pieces and find my fire again. I felt like a lived in a dark cave. All the juice was gone.

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Ding Dong Wakey Wakey

Then – if we are lucky, we get a wake up call. But if it’s too subtle. We don’t listen. And then a louder one comes, and a louder one, and a louder one comes, until finally it’s like the Uni-verse is screaming at us to wake up…I had several of these alarms going of in my life, but I just knocked them off the nightstand and went back to sleep.

And yes burn outs suck but they teach you about your limits and that you need to take care of YOURSELF. It teaches limits and that you are thirsty for self care. Self care is essential for everyone. It tells you that you need to balance and bring joy back into your life. It forces you to listen to your spirit. I am such a believer in self care now, that I want to shout it from the rooftops!! So here I am shouting 😉

Burn out blessing

The burn outs were  a blessing as they brought Mindfulness, meditation and Yoga into my life. But still old habits are hard to beat and this time after a very stressful period in my life I decided to take a relaxing holiday in Indonesia to rest and regain my energy. My body and mind were screaming for a  rest, so my crazy brain decided to go to Indonesia for one week to recover. A 24 hour journey for a one week holiday!  Crazy! What was I thinking, well I wasn’t thinking, or feeling and that was the big boo boo. And there I was on a beautiful bounty island and I felt nothing…nothing at all… I just wanted to sleep and be left alone. Ofcourse I hopped all over the island, not taking the rest that I really craved. Back home I immediately fell very ill. At first I thought it was the flu. And as I never ask for help, I just stayed in bed and waited for it to pass. But after a week I was still having very high fevers and I got red spots everywhere and I was seeing bright lights and felt like I was slipping away. Anyway to make a long story short, well shorter, I had typhus. During these high fevers I think I nearly died, my room lit up in bright light and I saw “beings”,we connected and something happened.

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I woke up and saw the big picture. I snapped out of my misery and veiled survival existence and I wanted to live. Live out loud! The connection was never lost again. And ever since then there is an urgency like I want to make up for lost time. I feel so alive and I so want to enjoy my stay on Mama Earth. I fell head over heels in love with our home and all beings on it.

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I woke  up to an awareness that I am full of potential. We all are! We are the bridging generation, between the forgetting into dancing directly with all of creation. I Knew this when I was little, I just choose to forget. The connection to myself and Source was restored. And I found my life energy back! The connection to Source and the Angelic and ET Realm had been opened much more clearly.

Ask for help

As I knew that it was time to connect with other people and ask for help and support I was guided I to seek help from a mindfulness teacher and later from Mahatma Revier of Spirit Coaching. And she changed my life. After many events and seminars at Spirit Coaching I got back in touch with my true self and helped me find back my light. I got in touch with beautiful souls and felt accepted and alive. I am so grateful and so inspired that I have chosen that I want to give back and help people take back their power and their joy. So I trained with Mahatma and am now myself a Spirit Coach and Mindulness based cognitive therapist.

Ongoing Healing

Ofcourse the healing didn’t go overnight and is ongoing. But looking back now, things moved fast. Sometimes and for some people, the shit needs to hit the fan before we wake up (but it so doesn’t have to!!). I will write more about stress and how to deal with this in my blog. I learned so much from my own experiences and want to help other people move through this with as much ease and grace as possible.

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And over the years I filled my mind with lots of inspirational content, I was so thirsty for knowledge and to understand my profound experiences. I have taken many workshops, listened to hundreds of teleseminars, read hundreds of books and was just buzzing with excitement for all this knowledge and wisdom. Than the migraines came, bad ones, every weekend. And I couldn’t do anything, everytime I would sign up for a self help course or read a book, “work” on myself, I would get terrible neckpains. I got the message this time, loud and clear. Enough studying, enough trying to understand, get out of your head and feel, that is your strenght, your sensitivity.  I have to feel and experience and get out there to share my insights and gifts. Shine my light and be my own guru, I connect with my inner guidance through daily meditation, yoga and conversations with the Angels. Ofcourse I still read books and keep up to date with what other people teach, but I feel very strongly that we should all be our own gurus and not take other people’s experiences as our rule to life.

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Time for action

SO HERE I AM and the migraines are gone and I am so much more balanced! I am happy and enjoy life and really want to live life and connect. I am so grateful for everything that happened in my life, the good and the bad. This has tought me so many lessons and also thought me to have compassion and love for this world. I now teach and guide people to step up, overcome burnout, overwhelm, prograstenation, body insecurity, healing and guidance with my co-workers the Angels and Ascended Masters. Go team!!!

I have studied and practice many modalities, like EFT, MIR method, Ho’ oponono, The Healing Codes, Sedona Method, NLP, Numerology and Food Psychology. I am certified Angel Therapist™,  Angel Oracle Card Reader, Angelic Realm Reader,  Atlantean Healer™ , Pranic Healer, Mindfulness-based cognitive therapist and Angelic and Usui Reiki Practicioner. I like to mix my gifts, practice  and knowledge where it feels right. I always follow my guidance.

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